Diana Reader

I've been sitting here studying and studying, struggling to get through this semester with the same motivation that I had when I started this program.  I've had a lot of ups and downs and a few idiotic moments that have caused my body more harm than I should have allowed.  I started zoning away from my notebook as I started petting my cat.  I shifted focus to the words on the page to the look in this little (well, not so little anymore) kitty's eyes and I saw something I wasn't expecting.  I saw an immense amount of love, dependence, and loyalty.  The love that flowed into and out of me surprised me - I never fully understood just how wonderful and healing having a pet could be (I use the word pet lightly, as I'm pretty sure I give in to what he wants more than the other way around ;) ). Not to get too bleak, but I started thinking about how difficult it will be to lose him - to not have this smiling, energetic, crazy eyes, cuddly, purring bundle of joy next t...

Do you ever feel like life is just a whirlwind?  Memories that happened just yesterday suddenly become memories from years past.  People you just met suddenly have been in your life for longer than you realize.  The faces around you change--though some stay the same, some of your once closest friends drift off into memories past.  Both heartbreaking and beautiful, you continue to move on with life, trying your best to step forward when you don't know what kind of ground you're stepping on.  There are moments that you remind yourself we're all walking on minefields, just praying that you'll be able to keep walking.   I spend a lot of time in my closet tonight (frankly, I'm still here).  It's where I think -- weird as it is, many times the small space and the reality I'm faced with presents itself within these four walls.  I turned on some Christmas music, as it always brings me comfort.  Harry Potter is playing in the other room and the tv ...